Looking inwards

It is the first picture I painted in 2020. I spent the final days of 2019 and the first day of 2020 at a Vipassana center in California. I passed 11 days in silence, meditating and preparing my mind and my soul for the new year and the new decade. To spend Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve that way was a very challenging but truly astonishing experience Meditation can be a pleasurable practice, as well as a difficult and painful one. A few sad memories arose: I dug into the past, mourned my friends who passed away, I thought of choices I could have made differently. I remembered the people and places I miss. I cradled little inner me, who never got enough of a father's love and support. It was a great meditation practice, complemented with a much-needed tidying up of my mind, which was so tired of anxiety and sorrow. I felt that my tears washed out layers of my heart's past experiences, cleaning it out. Day by day, I observed how my existence turned from being irritated and reactive into being calm and loving. And how my tears are turning into calmness and serenity.

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